Nikki ([info]blue_moose) wrote,
@ 2005-11-29 00:37:00
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Current mood: depressed
Current music:Cat Stevens

Bah..
Well, it cam to that point again -_- I went to the doctors today about my medicine. I was starting to feel these past few weeks like it wasn't working as well. I've been getting upset a lot easier than usual like I used to, and becoming more irritable. Then today I called out of work. I could not motivate myself to get up and go. It wasn't me being lazy at all. I'd feel to guilty to call out of work for no reason, I wouldn't be able to sleep. Today I just couldn't do it. So that's when I realised something was wrong. So I went to the doctors and he gave me new meds. I hope they work. I just want to find something that works. I want the depression to go away for good, and I want the anxiety attacks to go away. How do I explain to my bosses at work without feeling like a moron? I have a feeling Edna was pissed off today that I called out. She always complains about people calling out. Cause she still goes in when she's sick. *Grumble*


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[info]kytara00
2005-11-29 10:23 am UTC (link)
part of you feeling bad could also be the 'stress of the holidays'. nothing is going to make you completely happy all the time though. everyone gets depressed now and then, it is part of life, the body changing, and body cycles. so you are not a moron.

i miss you nik!

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[info]degeneratemite
2005-11-30 04:28 pm UTC (link)
Have you noticed yourself getting more depressed in the winter before? It could be seasonal affective disorder. When the days are shorter and darker, the brain produces more melatonin -- which, in excess, can cause symptoms of depression.

I think it's also possible that the shelter is gradually sucking the life out of everyone who works there. I've had a lot of similar problems lately. But, really, what kind of person would be motivated to get out of bed when they know that a full 8 hours of CLEANING and SCRUBBING and INHALING BLEACH FUMES awaits them? No one sane, that's for sure. Everyone is entitled to a mental health day once in awhile. Don't feel bad about it, everyone survived without you. (Except our friends in the kennel who were apparently so deeply upset by your absense that they found themselves unable to do their work.)

Oh, and this might brighten your day. Before you started working at the shelter, Edna used to habitually call out on Mondays because she hates Mondays. I overheard Sandy chewing her out over it more than once.

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